I went onto stickam last night. And saw a number of things being said about Ne. Mostly people trying to describe it and such. I’m not sure what it was, but something triggered in me that I wish I already had the video available so that I could point to it and see what people thought, who related to it, and who didn’t. So, maybe today I’ll do the filming of the video. At least the script part is already done. The script will, hopefully, help keep me from rambling all over the freakin place and to hopefully cover the points that I wanted to cover. Gah, talking one on one in person doesn’t require any of this work.
I AM hoping that after I get this done, and maybe a thread containing a serious of posts (basically it’s descriptions of me using my April posts as a guideline so that it can’t be said that I’m making shit it to try to influence others’ thoughts of me), then maybe, just maybe, I’ll feel how I felt yesterday during the day, relieved, ready and able to direct my attention to things that I can actually do and influence instead of wasting my energy doing things that exhaust and hurt me.
