Weapon of Choice

I know I said I would talk about food and cooking next, but right now I'm feeling a bit excited and silly and want to share. It was a bit of a convulated chain that led to the title, starting from watching youtube videos about Tiny Houses, to off grid living, to something else I forgot, to prepping. So many prepping videos talk about guns, guns, and more guns. Then there's the anti-gun stocking preppers, and the bickering back and forth videos. Who needs cable when youtube provides plenty of drama, eh?

Anyways, so night before last I finally told R that even though we're not into prepping, if we were, my weapon of choice would be a slingshot. I'd wanted to get one for a while, but it seems like such a silly thing at my age and current lifestyle. (Btw, I've a habit of getting into silly things.) Then, a couple of minutes later, I asked if we could drop by Yeagers (a fishing, hunting, camping, sports store) while we were in town the next day. He immediately said yeah. He knew why I wanted to go, lol, but I guess he had been wanting to cruise the store to see what stuff they had, you know, after watching all them prepping videos.

So, after my dental appt, we walked around Yeagers…who only had one slingshot in stock. So then we went to Big 5, who had a few more options. I bought one, and some white marbles as my practice ammo. They are called Trackers because you can see where they're flying. Total for both was less than $23.

Well, this afternoon, after the rain let up, we moved our deck cover tent thingie across the yard, then placed some sheets behind the target area and on each side, to catch and drop the marbles onto the ground in front. This is both a protective measure, and to reduce chances of losing ammo. Then we hung a pie pan and soda can within this giant “catch box”, and took a few practice shots.

We were out there for about an hour, practicing and clearing out the area and refining it for its intended use. Towards the end we were finally starting to hit the targets, lol.

It feels silly, to be a 42 yo obese female trying to shoot a slingshot. But it was fun, and provided a bit of functional movement.

I don't really have a long term goal in mind for this. I guess I think it would be kinda cool to learn how to shoot it decently. I can joke about squirrel meat, but I seriously doubt I would do such a thing. And I can joke about protection, but I doubt I would be a decent enough shot to not get myself into trouble.

I think part of my interest in it has to do with sustainability. It's a simple weapon that can pack some decent power. There's a variety of ammo one can use, making lead shots would be easy enough to do on one's own, you don't need fancy tools/equipment, no black powder, no special arrow making skills, etc. When shooting it you don't need a wide open space, it won't make a loud noise, and it won't likely draw attention to your direction (or hiding spot). It seems like a decent distance weapon that doesn't take up much room, is light to carry, and won't destroy the environment to produce. iow, a pretty good distance weapon of choice while living tiny.

Oh, btw, we only lost two marbles so far. I haven't lost ALL my marbles….yet. 😉


Change One: Tracking Expenses

One of the first changes we made towards trying to live a tiny life was track our income and expenses. Neither of us are particularly good at such things, though R is much better at it than I am. First step was to put a box right by the door into which we are to put our receipts from the day. The idea being to collect the receipts and then enter the data into a spreadsheet. I'm not sure how effective that's being, both in terms of remembering to put a receipt in the box, of making a paper if there was an online transaction, and of actually sitting down to enter the info into the spreadsheet. I made it as far as catching up to half of last month, and have been procrastinating on doing the rest. Also, some info's not been going into the box, like vet spendings, mortgage payment, corner store purchases, etc.

On the plus side, R has finished the roof sides and fascia boards. Now we just wait for the roofers to come in and redo the roof. And then we put in some insulation and replace the siding that got ripped out as he rebuilt part of the north side of the house. Am so looking forward to when he can come home from his day job and relax and not feel rushed to get outside to work even more hours on the house.

But for today…I'm hoping to finish some sorting of food books, fold clothes, catch up on the spreadsheet financials, help my daugher with her health insurance problems, and then relax at a friend's house who's making us an awesome dinner tonight.

Speaking of which, I recently expressed guilt to her that this will be the 3rd or 4th time she's cooked for us, while we've only had her over once. She smiled and said that she enjoys cooking but only has herself to cook for. While I have two to cook for, and I hate cooking. (More on my cooking issues in the next post.)


The Decision to Start the Journey

I am thinking of trying this blogging thing again. I'm not very good at reporting or writing articles, but I AM stepping onto a journey that I think will be interesting to review back on down the road. Perhaps that will help motivate me to write about some of the upcoming experiments and changes.

Most journeys start at some kind of decision made after facing some kind of challenge. Our challenge happens to be when we finally decided to have the roof redone. It's been leaking at a few of the windows, and we have rotted floorboards along the north side of the single wide mobile home we live in. This summer it was finally time to start getting those things fixed. We hired a roofing company, paid the deposit. While waiting for them to schedule the work, R started digging around at the floorboards, I assume to see the extent of the damage. Digging into the floor led to digging into the walls led to ripping off siding. We panicked. There's a LOT of rot.

We tried to figure out our options. Sell the place? Tear it down? Clamp down on our expenses and pay it off in a few years so we can sell it?

As we're considering our options, R rips the house apart enough to see that the damage, while major, is fixable. So he begins fixing the north side of the home and roof frame, and I? I come down with a wanna-rip-my-head-off toothache.

Something's gone wrong with a 22yo root canal that was capped about 6 years ago. The infection was pretty extensive (am still fighting it off). After reviewing our options, we figured the best path would be extraction and implant. It's a lengthy and expensive process. Everyone has opinions on this, usually based on their own teeth and their own dental issues. And while the mere thought of that much money being spent on one tooth makes me cry and wilt inside, I know that there are consequences for the other options down the road that would increase the costs eventually. So we're choosing to head off those consequences by just straight up doing the extraction and implant now. (I still cry about it, though. *sigh*) Oh, and my state supplied insurance won't cover any of it, it's all out-of-pocket.

So now we have R working his regular job, coming home and spending the rest of daylight working on the house, getting that side done and the roof frame fixed so the roofers can finally come in and reroof it all. When he can, he visits his father who's recently started chemotherapy. And I'm barely helping due to the pain and druggedness. The poor guy is burning candles at both ends. 😦

Somehow near the beginning of all this he came across Tiny Houses. Tiny homes built on trailer beds, often less than 200sqft. I DID say tiny. With all the work and money he's put into fixing this house issue, he could be finishing off a tiny house soon. Think of it…much less maintainance and expenses.

We've been watching youtube videos on them, which leads to off-grid living ideas, which have led to the journey we've entered, and hence this portion of my blog.

We talk about if we could live in one, what changes we'd have to make, which ideas or designs seemed interesting, etc. We talk about the problems faced by tiny housers, and how to maybe get around those problems. We've even talked about converting the master bedroom here into a studio so we could live in it while renting the rest of the home.

We'd have a long ways to go before we could even seriously consider making this kind of lifestyle change. For example, i have struggled with clutter and hoarding of notes and books for many years. I won't go into too much detail on that (right now) except to say that I have gotten rid of over half my stuff, and our home is still too crowded and cluttered. I would have to get rid of at least 75% of what I have now, before we could seriously consider getting rid of more so we could fit into a tiny home or the “studio”. There are definitely other things at play, but I won't get into them here as this post is already long.

I have, however, decided that I will proceed from here on as if we ARE moving into a tiny home. And further, as if this future tiny home will primarily be run off-grid. And so begins our journey…or at least mine. This truly is “The Beginning of the Rest of My Life…”


A Core Process for Permaculture Design

After freaking out, being overwhelmed, and frustrated with all the hurdles I’ve got to work around, and then finally getting a chance to talk about this with some people on a forum, I’ve got some focus back.

I had been going through Holmgren’s Permaculture Principles book. Going through one principle at a time, figuring out what questions and problems the Principles are designed to answer or solve.  But it was kind of annoying me because while the principles are good, and even some of the different permaculture principles found in other places on the net are all good…none of them really help a beginner actually apply them.  It’s all great for theory, and tossing ideas around, which I love to do.  But in this case, I also need to be able to apply the stuff.  I think that that frustration, that chaos, helped lead to the overwhelming and frustrated feelings.  (not the only cause, mind)

So last night I went through my more recent notes and started setting aside the portions that were more theory and less ‘how-to’ or ‘next-step’.  The following is what I was left with.  The portions that seemed like they’d actually let me know what to do next so that I’m less scattered (than normal).  It’s four short sections.  I’ll list what’s on my working note page, and then describe any part of it that might need some more info to make it clear to others.

Design Ethics

  • Design for the Earth
  • Design for the People
  • Design for the Future

Explanation: Permaculture has their ethics “Earth Care”, “People Care”, and “Fair Share/Surplus Share/Future Share”.  That last one goes by different names, but it was only recently that I came across the Care for the Future version.  While I can see the Fair Share one being preferred in some situations, it’s also one that might turn a lot of people off from delving further into anything dealing with Permaculture.  And frankly, the first two pretty much cover Sharing the Surplus already.  But a significant part of the focus of permaculture principles is regenerative, rebuilding soil and providing resources for the next generations.  So I found that I prefer the Future focus for that third ethic.  Plus, it fits in well with the 3rd basic need of co-evolve, which also puts the next generations into mind.

I woke up in the middle of last night with the realization that permaculture is about the designing process, not the actual how-to’s.  A permaculture song had helped put that in mind before, and helped my daughter understand what we were going to be learning and working on.  But the ethics as normally written didn’t really give that thought.  Which is probably why I kept ignoring the ethics and principles when I first started looking into permaculture.  And, it’s possibly one reason why quite a few people think that permaculture is a religion or a cult, and don’t get that it’s a design process.  But with a slight rewording, changing “care of” to “design for”…it makes that a little more clear while also providing a “this is what you are designing towards”.  And frankly, that also makes a number of the tossed around principles superfluous in stating, imo.  Oh, and I felt much clearer headed after the change and promptly fell back asleep after writing it down. This morning’s wake up didn’t alter that feeling, either.

Physical Systems

  • soil
  • food
  • water
  • energy
  • material resources, ?value adding?, and “waste”
  • shelter and built environment

Explanation: Holmgren’s Principles book has a set of domains that permaculture can be applied to.  I had come across a couple of places online that narrowed the physical systems down to the above.  There are other groups that are working towards the social, economic, etc domains.  But my personal primary area of influence is my home, my family, and my friends.  As such, I feel I could best ‘serve’ and ‘be served’ by putting my initial focus onto the physical systems.  And, well, frankly, this is the area I’ll get to save money through…instead of waiting around for someone else to change things to fit another ideal.  It would take years and years to even get the education system here to reconsider their methods, at which point my daughter has already graduated from high school.  But by learning how to design the physical systems in her own home, she’ll get the benefits for a lifetime, and may even be able to help others redesign their own homes as needed.

“Value adding” is surrounded by question marks because I’m not sure if it is important enough to be included here.

“Waste” is in quotations because in permaculture, a waste is an unused resource.

Core Design Process

  • Cycle: Observe -> Integrate -> Apply -> Observe …
  • Observe the elements and interactions in a system
  • Integrate an understanding of the interrelationships observed, with the core ethics and principles
  • Apply the understanding towards redesigning the system to better reflect the core ethics and principles
  • Observe the changes created, both within the system itself, as well as the influences it has outside of that particular system.
  • Repeat as a cycle of redesigning

Explanation: The very first permaculture principle most places list is “observe and interact”.  If you don’t spend time observing the elements, interactions, or system you’re working on, you risk wasting a lot of energy, time, and resources that could be used elsewhere.

The way most principles are listed isn’t very user friendly, imo.  One has to jump around from this to that to another and back again and then to another, etc.  In some situations this level of flexibility is great.  But for me, when I’ve got to actually apply the ideas to something concrete, it leaves too many options to sort through, with little idea of how to figure out which one to focus on now or next.  I had come across the Observe, Integrate, Apply sequence on a site somewhere.  It’s such an obvious sequence when worded that way.  But it’s simple and doesn’t send my head spinning into all sorts of directions.  And it’ll be a lot easier to show my daughter as we go through it step by step for a given Physical System.  Meaning, instead of spending a few more weeks going over all the principles without being able to link them to something concrete for her, we can just jump in and get to observing and integrating.

Core Design Principles

  • Multiple Functions (per Element)
  • Multiple Elements (per Function)
  • Self-Regulation (of the System)
  • Relative Location (with zones and sectors)

Explanation:  These core design principles are worded in a variety of ways on various sites.  Often there will be a list of principles with 2 or 3 that basically mean the same thing as one of the above.  A guy named Ethan Roland of Appleseed Permaculture spent time mindmapping various permaculture principles that he’d come across.   This mindmap can be found at



That ‘s it.  Those are my guidelines.  Things may change, but I think it’s basic enough and clear enough that I’ve minimalized chances of muddling my head with too many ideas and options to choose from.  It’s simple enough that my daughter will greatly appreciate it.  And it fits neatly on half a page.

Next step?  Restarting our observation attempts regarding our water inflow, usage, and outflow in this house (our Zone 0).  But instead of just observing, we’ve now got a way of developing and integrating our observations with the design principles and design ethics.  So we’ll have a clearer idea of what to change, and how to change it.

Fulfilling and Value Aligned Activites

I finally got to read through the book titled Radical Simplicity by Jim Merkel.  It’s worth a read for those who are interested in simplifying their lives.  Otherwise, the title alone will likely stop even a casual looker.  He basically takes the reader through a few different calculators for estimating the size of their ecological footprint, estimating a size based on their values, and figuring out one’s true hourly wage (which covers all the off the clock time and money which you put in just so you can have that job).  In this way the reader decides how much simplifying they want to do, and even in what areas they’d prefer to do it in.  Everyone’s final draft will look different, as it’s catered to them.

Despite the calculators, however, there’s nothing there to really help you figure out HOW to simplify the things you want to.  What I, personally, got out of it was a way of categorizing and evaluating my activities and money spending.

This morning I started a list, writing down the activities I do during the day.  Currently I’m writing them as/before/after I do them.  I then have 6 categories to choose from for each activity:  survival/health, comfort/luxury, connect, earthcare, peoplecare, return surplus.

For example, getting dressed and hopping onto the PC both counted as comfort/luxury activities.  Clarifying some butter and eating a breakfast of veggies + cheese counted as survival/health activities.  Handwashing my clothes and hanging them up to dry counted as earthcare activities because I used human power, minimal water, and air for drying instead of electricity, thus reducing my ecological footprint and costs.

Then, for each activity, under their category, I evaluate if the activity fulfilled me and if it aligned with my values/goals.  The evaluations are increase it, decrease it, improve the method, and ok as is.

So, for example, putting on a sweater this morning instead of turning up the heater I evaluated as ok on fulfillment (i got warmer), ok on alignment (not using more electricity fits with my goal of trying to reduce costs and footprint).

Another example, the handwashing and drying of my clothes got ‘improve it’ on each part, as it’s a process that I need to refine to better suit feeling fulfilled by doing it, and better alignment with my values.  I do feel that I need to streamline the process better.  And eventually figure out how to reuse the dirty water.

Using the PC decreases my fulfillment and doesn’t align well with my values.  I’d like to improve how I use it and decrease how often I use it.

Yes, after reading that, it all seems so complex.  But it’s more complex to write it out than to actually do it. Basically, the evaluations help me easily see which activities I’d be happier cutting back on, and which I’d be happier continuing or improving on.

I figure this is a good start on simplifying my life, and start working towards aligning myself with my values.

Do Your activities fulfill you? Do they align with your values?  What purpose do they serve in your life?  Would you prefer to increase them? decrease them? or find ways of improving some of them?

Permaculture Ethics and the 3 Basic Needs

The past couple of days I’ve been going through sites that talk about Permaculture.  Normally when people start talking about ethics and morals and shoulds, etc, I tune out or move on to somewhere else.  But for some reason, the Permaculture Ethics kept popping up, over and over and over.  I mean, yeah, so an intro to permaculture (which is what most sites are..remember, if you want to learn more, open your wallet)…anyways, so an intro to permaculture inevitably spends a little time and space talking about the Permaculture ethics.  And I kept glossing over it, as usual.  But finally, after the constancy, I finally read it.  And then looked at how others described it.  Most of it is repeating the same thing over and over.  But one site went into more detail on it:  http://deepgreenpermaculture.wordpress.com/permaculture/permaculture-ethics/

After reading through this, and mulling it over in my mind this morning, I realized that the Permaculture Ethics correspond with the 3 Basic Needs which I’d written of earlier.

Permaculture Ethic #1 (Care for Earth) fits quite well with Basic Need #1 (to survive)

  • The Earth is our sole provider of all the essentials that keeps us alive – air, water, food, shelter.  We cannot get these essentials met from anywhere else.
  • As such, we depend upon the Earth, and all its living systems, for our survival.
  • So, if we want to meet the survival need, it behooves us to
  1. not pollute the air we breathe, nor the water we drink,
  2. not poison the plants and animals we eat,
  3. not destroy the land which provides our sustenance.
  • Survival means caring for the soil on which plant life depends, and therefore is our source of food.
  • Survival means caring for the forests that supply us with clean air and plays a key role in rain formation and thus fresh water supplies.
  • Survival means caring for the waters, rivers, oceans, streams, etc which circulate nourishment from which all life depends on.
  • Survival means recognizing the difference between a need….and a luxury.
  • Survival also means taking responsibility for our selves and our actions.

Permaculture Ethic #2 (Care for People) fits a combo of Basic Needs #2,3 (to connect, to co-evolve)

  • No man is an island.
  • Humans, as a species are generalists, but individuals are not.
  • By  nature, humans are social and cooperative animals.
  • One person cannot do everything by him/her self, except in the most primitive of lifestyle.  This is why economy developed.  To trade services and skills.  To trade specializations.
  • When people collaborate to support each other, and to meet both physical and nonphysical needs, a sense of community prospers.
  • However, in order to collaborate with others, we must first take responsibility for our own selves and our own actions.  (depending on others is not the same as collaborating with them)
  • We must also have something worth collaborating with, be it information, skill, ability, or other resource, which can be used to help others meet their own basic needs.

Permaculture Ethic #3 (Return of Surplus to Earth & People) fits with Basic Needs #3,1 (to co-evolve, to survive)

  • The Earth’s resources are finite.  As such, there are only a finite share of resources available to each person to gain sustenance from.
  • If we take more than our share, we reduce someone else’s ability to gain sustenance from the earth.
  • If we use finite resources to make things other than for sustenance, we reduce someone’s ability to gain sustenance from the earth…perhaps even our own.
  • If we share any surplus of resources, we help someone else gain sustenance.
  • When we hoard/destroy resources, we create deficiency.
  • When we accumulate unused resources, we create pollution.
  • When we share any surpluses of resources, we create bounty.
  • When we share our surplus produce, our skills, knowledge, and experience, we build bonds between people and foster a sense of collaborative community.

Permaculture stresses inter-connectivity and cooperation.
How can we best meet the 3 Basic Needs of surviving, connecting, and co-evolving?  Not by accumulation and competition, but by inter-connectivity and cooperation.

3 Basic Needs: Survive, Connect, Co-Evolve

Just a few minutes ago I responded to an article that put down Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs, but then created one just as complex.  So I commented on it, and thought to paste that comment into here.

Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs made the error of viewing the self as an island, ultimately separate from others and separate from one’s environment.  If we remove that bias, his Hierarchy can be summarized into three basic needs:  to Survive, to Connect, to Co-Evolve.

Survival includes physiological and safety needs.  These needs are met by the environment and/or by our connections.  Without a healthy environment to meet our needs, we can not survive.  Without our connections, we would be too busy re-inventing the wheel of survival to ever move beyond survival.

Connecting includes affiliation and esteem needs.  It also includes connecting with our environment.  If we rely on a healthy environment to survive, it helps to remember that we are connected to that environment; that what we do to the environment will cycle back and influence our survival abilities.

Co-Evolve includes creative, cognitive, aesthetics, and actualization needs.  These are the cultural and personal memes.  We are influenced by the memes of past generations, as well as the memes developed in the present.  This reduces our need to constantly re-invent the wheel of survival.  We also co-evolve with our environment.  Changes we (and others) make to the environment influence changes we have to make within ourselves.

We are NOT islands.  If we want to reach our potential, as individuals and/or as a species, we have no choice but to work with each other, and/or with our environment.